UNDESIREABLE

what had happened to me...
seems to make me so sad...
only time in the greatest moment...
would be my company for a while...
she will further her study...
and left me here...
so she will find someone new in her life...
i'll be forgotten...
and be forgotten...
let her lives her life...
and make her things desireable...
for me...
it's just me...
and never become anyone else...
unless...
i'm dead...
through a painful, short dead...
then, i become someone else...
so let the time judges...
and let Allah decide...
what will happen to me in the future...